people can't hurt me now like they could before. and i won't let myself beat up on myself anymore. because i don't deserve it. I always thought I did.

I have a bunch of regrets, looking back. I should never had let go of Percia, never should have gone out with jeremy (biggest mistake to date, my friends), never should have cut myself plotted suicide. BUT i am a strong person now. i'm kind of looking to get into a relationship, too. to test drive my new self, so to speak. and just a offhand note: i am into girls exclusively at this point. guys seem too mechanical and soulless to me. plus girls have boobs and smell better and kiss better. this is so juevenile but i'm just getting it out.
SIGH
i will be adding more poems too my poem site soon. (iceinmyveins.diaryland.com)
if any of you are interested.
i love you diary. you have with me all along. thanks.