i'm really happy, and i love her so much, it's just... i'm sad. the issue of sexual orientation is so pivotal to my family that i may very well be excommunicated from them. removed from the will. wiped from every last memory. and that's if i even tell them. i can't... they're devout Christians. i was raised a Christian. i still carry enough of their teachings to kind of believe that my relationship with Percia is a ticket to hell.

what kind of god is that? i finally find the one person who makes me happy and it's a no-go with the Christian crowd? i don't know what to do. i want to be with her so badly. and it feels right. like nothing is missing. a feeling God himself could not give me.

i'm really depressed. i love you Percia. nothing is going to change that. but i don't know what to do...