i think i'm gonna stay up all night and watch, probably straight-faced, Southpark and other raunchy comedy shows. it will be my protest against the daytime, against light. i hate school. and i only go for half days, for Christ's sake. i'm pathetic.

i hate myself. if i had something sharp enough i'd cut my arms to ribbons just to feel the comforting pain, and scar my pale skin. i'm really depressed, but not suicidal, and i think that kind of makes things worse.