i want to withdraw completely from my friends. i just need to slip away quietly to rest in the darkness and forget about everything. i've always been more mature than other people my age; i can't relate to them.
but i'm bad with relationships. unforgiveably childlike. i just can't handle high-maintenance friends. i just don't want anyone anymore. we just cause eachother pain.
i wish i was numb and selfish and hormone-driven like so many others i know. but i've tried. i simply can't force myself to be something i'm not.
