i talked to Savannah. and changed my mind. 'maybe it won't be so bad', i thought, 'it's only sex...' but no. i have to make a concious decision. a decision to do the thing that is best for me. and that is not a fling. what if i get emotionally attached to this person? what if my emotions take a wrong turn somewhere and this all goes horribly wrong?
i have to call Savannah and tell her i cannot do this little blind-date-thing. she will not understand. she won't... i can feel it. and if she doesn't, i will lose the only friend i have at school. so i am screwed either way. this is lovely. so i have to call her. i'm... gonna go call her right now.
