the PROFESSIONALS talked at me in circles. "if you're hearing voices they will be outside you but inside you and you will look around to see who's talking to you. do you follow what i'm saying? no? well let me put it simply: you might be hearing voices that are outside you but truly inside your body that are just your thoughts. see, severe depression mimics psychosis sometimes... and you are most likely not schizophrenic, because of the tests you have undergone." i stopped her there. "tests?" i said. "i wasn't aware that the evaluations were tests?"

kill me now. excuse me while i go slash my arms to tiny pieces.